Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to such and such a city, spend a year there, buy and sell, and make a profit”; whereas you do not know what will happen tomorrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapor that appears for a little time and then vanishes away. Instead you ought to say, “If the Lord wills, we shall live and do this or that.” But now you boast in your arrogance. All such boasting is evil. (James 4:13-16 NKJV)
Recently, weeks of intricate planning and coordination with brethren in several foreign countries for our 9-week, fall mission trip to Asia was interrupted by circumstances beyond our control. Bonnie’s routine checkup and CT scan delayed our departure if not cancelled it altogether.
Next, we reported that further procedures would occur to further diagnose abnormalities discerned by the CT scan. Wednesday, September 24, Bonnie was to undergo paracentesis to drain a fluid sac in her abdomen. However, the amount of fluid was too minimal to permit draining or even to subject some of the fluid to further analysis. Frustrated plans once more!
Friday’s scheduled PET scan to more clearly define the irregularities observed in the CT scan was cancelled by our insurance company – it refused to pay for the test. Exasperated again!
Now we wait. Perhaps by Monday we will be apprised of when Bonnie will be scheduled for a biopsy as an alternative route to ascertain if Bonnie’s pancreatic cancer has flared up again. In the meantime, we fully realize that we are not in control of much of anything at this point (cf. James 4:13-16). Meanwhile, Bonnie continues to experience an array of varying degrees of pain in different parts of her abdomen, stomach and back. She persists on taking nothing stronger than an infrequent Tylenol. She is tired, and we are sometimes a little distraught, but well wishes and encouragement by Christian friends bolster us.
It remains to be seen how the next few weeks will unfold and whether we will be able to salvage any of our planned mission trip. We have already missed our appointment in Sri Lanka, and it is nearly certain that we cannot go to Myanmar either. In any case, we remain servants of our Lord and are at His disposal as He sees fit.